New Heart

It's been almost a week since the A-team has been at New Heart Ministries in Syracuse, NY. We've enjoyed much needed time with some awesome people of Christ. They're Kingdom steppers for real. Pastor Charity is an awesome Kingdom stepper and loves her kids. Charity started her church, by God's prompting, in September of 2008. Her ministry is make shock waves in the Church of America. The ministry is full of people who have broken hearts and who have a passion to reach out to the other broken hearted people. It's an awesome place to visit and be at. I want to go back when A-team is done. I only live 2 hours away and I feel like I've connected there. I want to make a difference in the streets, people's lives and help New Heart grow and be there. I'm hoping that God shows me where to go after A-team. It would be awesome to stay in the state I live in and travel on and off after a year or so.

Oh, by the way, God has been giving me a new heart. God has been showing me to be focused on Him and stop worrying about in life, because essentially I'm not of this world, I just happen to live here for the Kingdom. God has been showing me that I need to be so deep in Him that I don't second guess His love for me. My love in life is based solely in Christ because my identity is in Christ. He is my Abba Father and I love Him. Therefore, I love others and myself. That's the greatest thing to do and have in life. God commands us to love others as much as you love yourself. It's the greatest commandment in the Bible. It's an awesome commandment, because that means people can never be rejected and hurt if love is spread around by Christ. It's an awesome feeling to feel and know that Christ loves me and cares for me when sometimes I don't even think highly of myself, in those down times. On another note, God has been dealing with the issues of my heart and showing me that my feelings shouldn't override my discernment, wisdom and love in Christ. Our natural mind thinking shouldn't override what God is inside of us. That wouldn't be submitting our will to His will. We need to do that!!! We need to submit our wills to God to ultimately be enveloped in His love and share it.

I'm just sayin'.....

Lover of my Soul

This past week God has been showing me who He is to me. It says in this very famous Christian song from Hillsongs United, that Jesus is the lover of my soul. Jesus is suppose to be our everything on earth, because that's what He is in heaven when we die from earth and have eternal life. God is provider too. When I think of the word provider, I think of giving money and security. Well basically, God is that for His lovers, but God can't be contained in a box and limited. He is limitless with His promises to us. With the title provider, God provides us life. In our lives on earth, he can provide us with His unconditional love, support, security, advice, and much, much more. Through this revelation of God being my lover, He has also shown me what it is like to have confidence in life and of all in Him. God is the first being that I go to for anything. If I am struggling with something, God already know, but He wants me to turn to Him in the very present time of need and trouble. God showed me that He wants me wrapped in Him first before I can move on in my life. When I talk about moving on in life, I talk about my future mate. God is showing me how love is suppose to be with Him, so that I know what love is when He sends me my beloved on earth to spend the rest of my life with him.
I would totally encourage you readers to find what true love is in Christ before you go off and make mistakes and rush love. My dear friend on A-team, Camilla, told me to not rush love. She means to let God take control of my life and be my lover before I take my own will and give it away to someone who could hurt me. I want God to love me back first too. He will bring me to my beloved and I will be pleased and happy in life because it's God controlled. He is the ultimate lover of my soul and provider. I have nothing to worry about with God in my life. I love Jesus!
Blessings :o}

Breakthrough

God has been working in me the past couple of days. I've attended the nightly ministry services at Victory Church in Albany, NY, with the thought that I would praise God, listen to some awesome sermons or testimonies, then go to bed feeling refreshed for the day. Well, it's not that simple. God wants to wreck His people. Wreck means being completely controlled by God and allowing my body, soul and mind being taken over by the Holy Spirit. Dudes, I want to be wrecked so hard in God that people have to know God to come and find me. This past week our nightly services have been at a point of being wrecked in the Holy Spirit. Through the Holy Spirit and "new wine", I have learned how the love of the Father is so real that I don't need anything in life to keep me happy.

I submitted my will over to Holy Spirit and allowed Him to engulf me in His love. That's where I have learned my identity is in. My identity is in Christ. I am dead and only alive in Christ. My will is something that God gave me and doesn't go against. That's the very thing we have to submit though, if we want good things and results to happen in our lives. I want God to take over this dead body and just let me a flowing vessel for him.

The breakthough I speak specifically that has been taking place in my life has been in regards to the true love in life. True love doesn't exist dudes. You can say it all you want to the one you love right now. If you love someone it can't be true. It's only true when you love God first and love others. It says in the Bible to love others as much as you love yourself. We need to choose to love others and God as much as we, obviously, love ourselves. True love doesn't exist, unless you have the honest idea about what love is = God. Let's get real people. I mean everyone says I think I found my soul mate. Our soul mates should be Jesus Christ alone! When we get that realization we will then find our "mate" that God has intended us to be with on earth. If you think about it, when we go to heaven, we don't need anything, but Jesus! I just keep getting downloads of God's love to me. I know this is meant to be a testimony to others, so I can share about it.

I was worshipping the other night and I was having a hard too. We have a saying on A-team about how we can "fake it, until we make it." We can fake worshiping God or something until we actually mean it. We have to again submit our wills to God and just be engulfed in him. Our will turned over to God then we can just submit easier and be free from the worldly influence on earth and just live out God in us. It's all good in the hood, literally here in Albany.

Within the love download that God has been giving me, I am also understanding and getting more revelation on Abba Father. I have to say that I'm sick of people saying that God is this or God is that and not understanding who He is. He is our Father. He is our provider. He is our lover. He is our Daddy. He is our Papa. He is our everything. When are people going to understand that God isn't just someone who sits on His throne and watches us from time to time. He doesn't just sit there, scratch his head, and wonder why we make mistakes. God is THERE in the midst of our troubles catching every tear that we shed on earth. He's THERE catching us when we fall and sin. He's THERE! He's HERE in our hearts! He died on the cross to give us live. He didn't do that out of pity, but instead He did that out of love and compassion. He loves us. Who do you know that would go through suffering and die on a cross for you. I bet you NO ONE! So, if someone who died on a cross for us, loves us so much, then why do still today just go on in our daily lives, just living life and not paying attention to who God is? Why do we ignore the ever present God? Let's get real, God doesn't leave us. His promises are every day for us. They're there for us to grab and hold onto and never let go. God is the only one that will never let you down! He will never forsake us. He loves us.

Blessings to you readers.