Amor en espanol. Love in English.

I've been job searching since August. I finally have had some interviews at one place. I know this job is mine, but waiting around for that call back whether I have or not, can be nerve racking. So, in the mean time, God has been calling out to me. He has been speaking ever so softly and passionately to me. He's been loving me. I came to the conclusion that God needs to be loved back. The longing women have for their husbands needs to be implemented in the relationship that we should have with God. It's really true. We need to long for Jesus. Don't wrap your head around the humanistic view point and say, "Eww.. I'm suppose to be God's 'lover'?" Guess what! Yes, you are! But it's in a holistic and beautiful way between Jesus and you. It's suppose to be pure. I don't care if you're the pureist person in the world. We all tend to have fleshly tendencies. God is the ultimate of purest love. That's where we can be pure in life. And with God we have to throw all that humanistic view and view God from what He says He is and what the Bible says. God is to be our lover and Father. It's not complicated. It's quite simple. If you need to figure it out more, just press harder into God and His Word. He will show you when you trust Him completely. I promise, you won't be disappointed.

Let me leave you with this poem from my heart to yours.

I'm undone when I lay in Your arms.

I'm loved forever by your touch.

You're compassionate to the end.

You're forever mine and unchanging.

You're the God of the impossible.

You're the God of everlasting love.

I'm the child who is loved forever.

I'm the child you call out to, for time spent.

I'm the one wrapped in your touch.

I'm the one who doesn't need to strive to earn it.

You freely give it all away.

You're love lasts into eternity for always.

Falling Up

I had this revelation about a favorite song of mine. If you get a chance, look up the band Falling Up. Their song I had a revelation on is called, Broken Heart. Here are the lyrics:

In this moment synchronized inside

Words that paint the legacy of life

A different picture will unfold

A healing finds it's way through

Sifted times I take another breathe,

With the ambience of nothing left

So heal my heart, rain down Your love, these waters bring me back to life

Father, Healer

Deliever me from broken love

Stay here, Closer

Let me hear Your voice of love

There's a healing calling from the wind

There's a Healer waiting to begin

In timeless places, traced and faceless will I learn to let go

Take me to the heights where Love controls,

Far away from home but feels so close

This empty heart of mine will fall inside and bring me back to life

Father, Healer

Deliver me from broken love

Stay here, Closer

Let me hear Your voice of love

You can hold

You can mend

You can heal

You can break, I hold cause something etched this way

Saviour, Redeemer

Bring me to this place of Peace

Jesus, guardian

My broken heart is so in need

Originally, I fell in love with this song when my father left my family and I was 16 years old. I was at one of the lowest points in my life. I wanted to hide everyday I got home from high-school. I wanted to kill myself. I really did. I wanted to get away and not experience life anymore. I happened to stumble across this song one day on the radio and I loved it. I went to the store and bought the CD and popped the dang thing in my CD player in my car and rocked out to the entire CD. It made driving easier and made me get into a good song.

Just a few months ago, I had a relationship in my life end and I cranked this song on again, but it was blaring from my laptop speakers this time. So, I went from being hurt from my own father to having a close relationship end and this was the song that held me together with Jesus. I rocked out to the song again. I danced my tears away. Little did I realize at the time that God held my tears in a bottle.

Now, I put the song again the other day and I had this huge revelation. So, I looked up the lyrics to study them closely. I started to feel my jaw drop and then I let the tears well up in my eyes. My heart got touched for real this time.

The love that the artist sings about in Broken Heart is about the love that in the world that God can save us from and then in turn give us the perfect love. It's about getting everything you need and more from the Father. God is the satisfier of our souls and He wants to be the lover of our souls. When we encounter life and get disappointed, we encounter broken love. Through that brokenness in the world's love, we sometimes don't know where to turn and get healed and move on. However, there's a better hope. That hope of healing is from God. The song sings about God being our Redeemer and giving us peace in a good, positive state of God's love.

This song doesn't give me the same feeling as it did before. It will never be a song about how my heart was broken and I needed mending again. It's not about love you find on earth. People disappoint you. God will never disappoint you. This time my heart got so deep in God's love that I will always listen to this song with hope and excitement from now on. My heart will forever be swept away in a closer love and healing waters. God is etched in my heart forever.

Lover of my Soul

This past week God has been showing me who He is to me. It says in this very famous Christian song from Hillsongs United, that Jesus is the lover of my soul. Jesus is suppose to be our everything on earth, because that's what He is in heaven when we die from earth and have eternal life. God is provider too. When I think of the word provider, I think of giving money and security. Well basically, God is that for His lovers, but God can't be contained in a box and limited. He is limitless with His promises to us. With the title provider, God provides us life. In our lives on earth, he can provide us with His unconditional love, support, security, advice, and much, much more. Through this revelation of God being my lover, He has also shown me what it is like to have confidence in life and of all in Him. God is the first being that I go to for anything. If I am struggling with something, God already know, but He wants me to turn to Him in the very present time of need and trouble. God showed me that He wants me wrapped in Him first before I can move on in my life. When I talk about moving on in life, I talk about my future mate. God is showing me how love is suppose to be with Him, so that I know what love is when He sends me my beloved on earth to spend the rest of my life with him.
I would totally encourage you readers to find what true love is in Christ before you go off and make mistakes and rush love. My dear friend on A-team, Camilla, told me to not rush love. She means to let God take control of my life and be my lover before I take my own will and give it away to someone who could hurt me. I want God to love me back first too. He will bring me to my beloved and I will be pleased and happy in life because it's God controlled. He is the ultimate lover of my soul and provider. I have nothing to worry about with God in my life. I love Jesus!
Blessings :o}